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Thursday, May 02, 2013

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0nce up0n a time... i believed.
|5:19 PM|

Sunday, December 02, 2012

1 mth into ns life! lol.. ok la still long way to go.. budden now is like going to pop alr it's ok so far still rmb the first few day i feel like crying.. haha.. budden now adapt alr.. wan cry also cannot cry alr. cause too bz. did grenade live shooting.. haha.. ippt was awesome bz i got the my platoon best shuttle runners of 9.1 sec wahhh!! cannot believe.. 2.4 not best budden beat my own timing. 9.16 so ok la.. still didnt achieve commando timming.. lol budden nvm la.. will keep training.. anw army nv really train me recently.. preparing for field camp and road march.. o well.. n love life now is pretty....... monotone.. too bz? too boring? i dont know.. im kinda tired wif life right now.. i wanna play.. im still a small boy i havent really change much since army.. seriously i dont know how army can even transform ppl.. i c a lot of ppl still as childish as me in army n didnt change a bit. o well.. i dont know why.. i am still thinking about you.. and im filled wif jealousy.. how ya doing? i think i no longer exist in your world alr.. im just some passerby right now right?

0nce up0n a time... i believed.
|4:26 PM|

Saturday, June 30, 2012

haha.. na.. no more emo stuff.. just wanna say that i dont know i believe in retribution lol i've such a wicked heart. but srsly. yeah.. there is n that prove it i mean it can happen now or in the future.. if it happen now then yeah.. u r done wif ur punishment if not u just got to wait for a lil longer second thing pls respect ppl no matter hu they are or WHAT they are. i mean.. srsly.. everyone isnt born to be the way they wanted. some yes mayb because they are like super star and dont ever ever compare because.. ppl like different thing and i hate to say this but.. it's talent. and it's kinda a destiny.. if u r born with that kind of backgrd then yeah.. u will eventually i mean will u ever be a soccer player like ronaldo if u r born in singapore and ur parents object u from taking up soccer classes? wat u want to do? for n learn it by urself? i mean srsly.. how far can u go.. so please dont compare.. well tat's just random stuff it didnt happen to me. i just feel that ppl are too proud of themselve.. they dont give a shit bout what others are feeling n srsly.. respect that.. respect how ppl are even if they are ruining ur life.. if they are doing it on purpose then ya fuck them if not.. just put urself in their shoes. i was on of them hu fuck ppl all the time but yeah.. i got my retribution and quite frankly. i am getting all the shit now. but this actually make me learn so im kinda fine with it cept that if it's possible then srsly.. get out of my body. yup.. so... peace out and enjoy (:

0nce up0n a time... i believed.
|7:57 PM|

Sunday, June 03, 2012

sry for the rant again. when i thought my life would be better after my previous post but no. N-O no. i know i say this again n again budden this is really how life works n until i learnt how to freaking accept it. i will keep on typing n typing n typing n typing over n over n over n over again and you know, i dont get sick of it! you know y?! cause i really dont know why this stupid reality shit just fuck me up. for gods know why. there's no love there's only fate there's only luck there's only chance. i wont say destiny cause i really dont believe that everything have alr been pre deteremine what i believe is you cre8 ur own life. i still believe it now. n i will continue to i believe in hard work and love i wont let this stupid reality shit break it up if i fall i stand again. i dont care if i am a anime joke or not what i cant stand is that i really put everything into it i dont dont dont reserve some for zy right. mayb you still think of jasp mayb u wan ur fucking freedom i dont know i can tell u i am freaking scared of everything repeating again mayb this is better. u enjoy ur freedom, i get out of this fear hope i get job soon i really dont know what im doing all this time. n looking at others they really have that kind of friend that i really wan but y dont i have? im trying to learn the word social here really im like 20 it's too late n yeah this is reality you need to go on to ur new whole chapter to do new things and even then you know sometimes there are so many fuck up things that can happen. sometimes reality just make me wanna step onto the ugly world. im forcing. ya joke i am. u can call me. i then i know what i am capable of more than u know of me. arhh.. this will be in my mind for 1 week srsly joke 1 mth. i dont know how it actually happen on me.. you know what.. fuck it. 1 mth. anw u will be travling so often that one day.. everything will just go back to normal so fucking soon does it affecet you even now? i really dont think so.. your reply was so.. ermm ya.. i lost her i lost you. ok.. well done.. what now? i need to lower my fucking standard? what i need a fat ass girl? sry i m not trying to say you all aint good. srsly some of u r really a good friend. but i have my story to tell to think i had two stupid shit plan out. i really think the beach will be awesome really one of the most awesome thing i have ever ever done more than anyone i had done for. it will take so much time n effort. but yeah. fuck it. 1 mth of talking = no topic srsly. change that mindset. if that's the fucking case there will be no couple. is not no topic is getting bored. srsly.

0nce up0n a time... i believed.
|10:05 PM|

Tuesday, May 29, 2012

haha.. i always dont know what to type when i start blogging.. but yeah i dont really feel sad today.. im just kinda bored. you know.. nothing much i really want to say i think life has been good up till now.. cept that i am still jobless and i cant drive.. it makes me arhhgg.. i kinda know how love actually works for me.. and actually.. more than 50 percent of the world population can actually be my girlfriend. yeah im that sort of guy.. i trust me when i say i will only be faithful to one which is actually the one i am having. no matter how much i love another zhenyee, i got to let her go..... like go, go away.. eh eh eh eh.. 2ne1. :) and srsly bro.. 21st century.. just shut up and enjoy life.. we are young man.. so lets set the world on fire.. nothing much i want to say really.. im just here to fucking open my mind... human.dont.die.so.easily. and.if.we.were.meant.to.die. we.will.die. continue living this way.. can pls. earn some fucking money. or else.. i can c my days living with maggies..

0nce up0n a time... i believed.
|4:08 PM|

Friday, May 11, 2012

wow.. the last time i post is liek feb? haha.. hmm.. not really much happen since then.. then i think i post because of some mf.. but of well all of that aside.. iam fucking out of poly.. and i am fucking free for like.. hmm.. june is approaching.. so is july august sep oct? .. that's like 5 more mths.. wts.. 5 more mths anw.. its still quite a long way to june... but anw.. i got to set things right.. i dont wan to go and approach thing blindly.. i must start being independent.. and fuck.. isnt that like what i wish for at the fucking start of this year.. yeah. 2012 huh.. end of fucking world.. yeah yeah.. all the swearing come again.. thanks to ray! awesome guy he is.. but oh well.. anw... im so bored.. i need to fucking blog.. actually no.. im moodless today.. y? i screw up my fucking life.. WOOHOO!!! yeah actually it's not so much of a screw.. i've been thinking about it before i send.. but yeah.. at least you know u look up.. and u fucking see the fucking big pic.. but anws... see.. i've kinda started boxing.. and yeah.. it's really hurting my knee and elbow badly.. mayb i shld stop.. but one thing m i interested? hm.. say.. i m more interested in mma.. well.. at least through everything i got de basics.. and mayb it's time to stop.. i mean what.. a poor man have to steal right? wel.. what can a poor man do without stealing? beg? haha.. please.. this is wrong.. yeah.. he shld fucking look for a job.. well.. i am waiting.. anw i did apply for just.. i am not a fucking girl.. so yeah.. right now.. if things go according to plan.. then yeah.. i am consider quite pack.. if not.. i am screwing my life from head to like stomach? srsly.. isnt it like from 1 jan 2012 i told myself to eat! fuck.. stop tortouring my fucking body.. haha.. blog u know u can be my gf? cause u really just listen and shut the fuck up.. haiz.. say... i am lucky aint it.. getting into u and all.. budden yeah.. i spend fucking 4 years.. thinking about it... i will go like about the same time as my cousin hu is like 2 years younger than me.. wow... how old will i get fucking married man.. but yeah.. if im going to do something.. do it well.. i mean if i really have the fucking money and my body is like fit like everyone else.. i would continue but no.. call me weak call me poor.. i dont give a damn.. i know what i wan n i know what i am saving my money for.. yeah.. i envy those hu spent their fucking money right down to 0 bud thats not me. im going to keep saving. keep saving. keep saving.. once i got my first pay.. things will change i swear.. but till now.. bear if it babe.. i got only like one more week of hell.. after that.. fuck me baby.. i dont care.. and to my dear zy.. i know i will lose you.. i know.. but hey.. u r happy.. n somehow.. you r just like may.. one day.. somehow some way i will get rid of u.. yeah.. one day.. well.. i mean if theres no contact or whatsoever then just fuck it.. life goes on... haiz... what m i thinking man.. and yeah.. everything must go according to plan.. budden i really dont know what to do in my free time.. i mean.. what can i do.. i am on this stupid damn hot computer that will blow anytime.. playing monster world n ninja all the time.. yeah.. i dont mind if i am poor i just wan to have fun budden what's fun without money.. i really dont know.. haha.. well.. i really think i miss sec sch life even if i think sec sch life sux.. n take this srsly young kids out there to whoever actually srsly come to this fucking url by accident or by whatever means treasure secondary school life.. nth beats it.. cept for a mma fighter.. well.. that's all for today.. i wan to be like ray n higa someday.. haha.. can i??? that's all for today... ns ns ns ns ns ns! after i fucking come out.. show my the fucking world.. yeah.. the world that's so fuck up.. ^^ peace out guyz..

0nce up0n a time... i believed.
|5:33 PM|

Friday, February 03, 2012

first mth of 2012 have past..
and i thought i got survive a wonderful 2012..
na.. not really..
somehow i got pissed at hz for nth and even shouted at him.. and know i think he is -.- with me.
oh well..
i dont really know what to say i just wan to live a normal life..
is it hard is it possible?
actually it is..
i just need to open up my heart and stop being so selfish..
and somehow..
i need to start learning how to survive on my own and stop being such a happy go lucky kind of person..
mayb it's time to get serious and start having discipline
i wanna do so many things..
when i open up my msn..
i dont even know hu i can talk to..
isnt this too much of a loser..
i wan a normal life..
mayb i got to start beliving in reality..
i just stop thinking that everything is possible
i shld stop beliving in hardwork..
at the end of the day..
seriously..
if u cant produce..
u r a loser..
how true is this??

0nce up0n a time... i believed.
|10:21 PM|